Boys, boys, boys...

Now, seriously. I think Lisbon is under attack. By gorgeous foreign guys! Really, everywhere I look, either on the subway or the train, in McDonalds or in a coffee, they're everywhere! How can a girl focus when gorgeous guys are walking around, with their blonde hair and blue eyes, their dark skin and green eyes, it's awful. It's so good that it's awful. I have a radar installed inside my head and everytime a cute guy is nearby, I think my brain starts to make a sound to alert me "cute guy is coming, the impact will be in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...eye connection has been established!". It's a lot of offer right now. Do you know the concept "supply and demand"? Well, I think that we have too much supply and few people to take care of them, and by supply I mean "hot guys" and by people I mean "girls". So, do you have any ideas for this festival of hotness around Lisbon? My eyes are so sore...


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Rule: no licking!

Okay people, I know that being a mess is awesome, I mean, who doesn't love it? But maybe we need some boundaries. Yesterday, while I was taking a picture with friends, a guy licked my face. May I add that I don't even know him? A total stranger licked my face. In the middle of the club. My only question is: why? What the fuck dude? My face is not made of candy. So why the hell would you lick my face? That's disgusting. What the hell happened to talking with a girl first, and then, IF she gives you the permission (IF), you may lick her. But even then it's disgusting. Don't lick people you don't know. You may catch some decease. And the best thing is that I got a picture of this fantastic/horrible moment so I can never forget it. What a treat!

From the girl who got licked,

B.

Feelings suck

These last couple of weeks have been super intense. I felt so many things from stress to anxiety, from happy to sad, from loved to unloved. I know it sounds silly, but I just got tired of feeling. Saying goodbye to your friends is heart breaking and doing this again and again and again is even worst.

How do you prepare yourself for the pain and sadness you know you will have to go thru to say goodbye? I don't know and I think I don't really care anymore. It's like it doesn't feel like they're moving anymore. Everything doesn't look like it is real.

At least, for me, this is my shield - not believing. If I don't think about it, it doesn't exist. So now, I just feel numb.

I don't really know how to feel.

I just prefer not to feel.

Feelings off.

Peppa

Clumsy bitch

So, I'm clumsy. The truth is out. Last friday, on Erasmus corner, accidentaly, I pour two glasses of beer into the floor...what a waste. Have I mentioned that one of them left my top all soaked? Great aim, really. I'm the girl you should never trust with things that die, broke and/or are electronic. If you give me a pillow? That's awesome! I'll take care good care of it, maybe even sleep with her. If you offer me a book? Great, I'll read it. Clothes are good too because I'd wear them and if something happens they'll just go the washing machine. Now, if you ask me to hold a glass? Either it will brake or the beverage will be lost forever. The camera will drown in white wine. The mp3 will fall in the tub. The computer will be swimming in milk. The cell phone will fall of the window, three stories down (but he managed to stay alive). I even hurt myself. I fall a lot, I bump into things. The other day I was (supposedly) dancing with a friend and baam! I hit my head on the wall. Believe me, that one hurt. Consider this only as an advice. You don't need to stay away from me. Just keep your medical insurance valid.


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Someting about Goodbyes

I never say goodbye
It's always a "see you later"
But still I cry
Goodbyes, I am your hater

Hugging you one last time
Wishing you could stay
Leaving me is a crime
The police should lock you away

There's something about saying goodbye
That fills me with fear
Memories won't get me by
I want and need you here!

                                    
                                   See you soon,
                            A very sad portuguese girl :(

Italian feelings

Today is our favourite day: friday. It's a day that everyone loves. If I woke up right now from a coma and someone told me that it was friday, that alone would make me happy. But today is a bitter sweet day because we have a party. And now you're thinking "why the hell are you sad if you have a party today?". The party is being organized by some italians friends who are leaving, some next week, some in the end of the month. And we're going to miss them, a lot. They've been in Portugal since september and that's a long time. Of course we'll be in touch and perhaps they'll come back for vacations or something. But it won't be the same thing. We'll miss that contagious good humor, their effort to speak in portuguese with us, their stupid jokes. They are really sweet and funny, why do they have to go? We'll probably cry. Like a lot. I hope they'll cry too so we won't look as bad. For now, we'll just have fun. Enjoy the last days and do our best to make great memories, so when we do miss them, at least we have something to make it easier. Feelings are the best and the worst thing simultaneously. I wish we could trade places: Italia would be in Spain and the other way around. Let's think about it.


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Feed me please

My sleeping schedule has been crazy lately. It's all messed up. It's like I'm a vampire and I don't need to sleep. But it's not like that! I need to sleep. I don't want to, but I need it. Otherwise I'm yawning all day and I have moments of pure stupidity, which usually I already have, but with sleep depravation is even worse. Either I have the urge to eat everything in the planet or I get nauseated easily. Either I have to sleep 10 hours straight or I wanna do 20 different things and it's like I just drank five redbulls. My friends can tell when I'm not at my best: my sentences don't make any sense, I can be really quiet and all of the sudden I begin singing really loud, it's pratically screaming. I'm a mess. Today is like 2.0 mess so be aware. You'll never know what I'm capable of. But I will give one tip, if you offer me food, my body immediatlly starts to calm down. Just feed me please.

 

 

 

Keeping the hate

Do you know those people that just by talking annoy you? I know a lot of them. And although I'm not sure I can invent it, I'll try to come up with a new product: the mute button! You just walk around with it in your pocket or your bag, anywhere, and when an annoying person walks by you or starts talking to you, you won't hear a thing. Then how do you respond to the person, you may ask. Real simple. I will also invent a device that combined with the mute button, will text you what the person said. How is it going to work? I don't know. I have no idea. But it's the begging of something, I can feel it. Then I will sell it to you. Just wait and see. The mute button will be famous! Goodbye annoying people!



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FU day

There are days when we just don't care about anything. Today is one of those days and it happens to be monday so, I think the universe is trying to me tell me something. It's like one of those days when you say everything that comes to your mind and nothing can stop you. It's like for one day, you can only say things that are true and you can't lie. You don't care about feelings or surprise reactions, you only spoke the truth. So today, if you have any question, just call me or text me. I promise I will only tell you the truth. You have until midnight. Go nuts.


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Guilty Pleasures

Yes, you know what I'm talking about. That thing that you love but you are guilty of loving. You know. Don't lie to me. It's cool, here you are safe to say it. In fact, we encourage you to say it.
Now, I'm sure you are thinking of a pretty guilty pleasure you have and I'm sure it is super embarrassing, but who cares? If you like it, you should watch it or listen to it or do it. Don't be afraid to look messy!
Today, I spent the whole day watching a series of movies that I consider a guilty pleasure, and I loved it. So, why should I be afraid of sharing it with my friends or even the entire world?
Trust me, I had a great afternoon studying while watching the three movies from High School Musical. Yes, you read it right. I know it is childish, but I really liked those movies when I was a kid, so I felt like having a past trip to East High.

So, now that one of my guilty pleasures is out, tell me. What's your guilty pleasure?

Something About Italians

Always a joker never a jerk
They'll never arrive before 11 o'clock
It's ok cause they have that smirk
And the best smooth talk

Look into those big brown eyes
And you stop being smart
You'll always believe their lies
But you know they'll break your heart

There's something about them
That makes me have dirty thoughts
Promiscuous I am
I don't want one Italian, I want lots!
                                             
                                             vi voglio bene,
                                          A Portuguese girl ;)

                                           
                                     

Close your eyes

I love fridays. Who doesn't anyway? It's the end of the week and you can relax for a while. The problem is when you can't relax and the problems stick with you. I need to get away for a while and just breathe. When my head is a mess, I can't think straight and everything gets blurred. I can't see what is in front of me. Just disappear for the weekend and I would return a brand new person on monday. But I can't, life isn't always the way we want it to be. So I'll just take a deep breath, close my eyes and try to do my best. Life is good. Just close your eyes once in a while if you need to and everything will seem different when you open them. Because sometimes, all you need is to distance yourself to understand how different things can be. Just breathe. That's my advice.

Come on, get up

Although I'm really in a good mood today, I'm going to write to those who feel like a real mess. Life sucks. It's true. Don't give me that sentences "oh life is the best" and "everyday is a second chance". No. Sometimes life is really shitty and you just need to get by it. And that's a real pain in the ass. Because sometimes, when you're really at the bottom, no one can help you. Even if they have experienced the same, that's not going to help you. You are the only person that can help yourself. Of course that you'll always have your family, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend, even a dog or a fish, whoever or whatever helps you. But ultimately, it has to be your decision to stand up. You are the one that needs to decide if life is going to be something great, the best thing you've ever had. It's up to you to be happy. Surrond yourself with people who understand you. People who make you smile and do stupid things with you. People that give you what you need, not only when you ask them but also because they know you need it. Life isn't easy and everyone knows it. You just need to learn how to use the things that life gives you and turn it in your favor. You know the saying "if life gives you lemons, make lemonade"? Whatever life gaves you, make good things with it. Make your own hapiness. And never forget to share with the ones near you, because they'll give you the same they receive. Be messy, be crazy, be bipolar, be loud, speak your mind, make questions, be stupid, make mistakes, be sad and cry. You can do all of that. Just don't forget to be happy.



B.

 

Make UP your day #1: Flaws

No, we are not going to talk about makeup (today). Don't worry. I just want to make up your day and make it a little better, either if you are working or studying or even doing nothing in bed. Let's warm up that messy soul.

Today, I got inspired by this amazing artist, BASTILLE. His songs are always so truthful and from the heart, the raw truth. 

It's true we all have many many many many many flaws and that we are messed up because of them, but it is thanks to them that we are unique. There is no single person who is exactly like you, as messed up as you. Some of us are helpless romantics, some live in some kind of daydream and some even are incredibly goofy in every situation. This can be bad but believe me that this is what makes them unique and awesome. 

So, the thing is, don't worry if you have flaws, we all do, just embrace them and be as messed up as you can. It will be much more fun, I promise.

Video of the day: Bastille - Flaws

Something About Germans

They are tall
They are cute
When they call
My voice becomes mute
 
They are nice
And buy girls drinks
My heart melts like ice
When a german winks
 
There's something about them
That makes me wanna say hi
Flirty I am
Talking to a german guy!


                                 Ich liebe deutsche Männer,
                                            A portuguese girl ;)