Play it cool

Play it cool. Just be cool. Act cool.

What does that even mean? When it comes to people that you care, it's impossible to play it cool, it would be like pretending you don't really care or that you don't care enough to think about playing it cool.

I'm a stressed person, I admit. I can't play it cool, although I try every single day and do you know what that brings me? More stress. And I don't even know if it's worthwhile.

"Don't send so many messages.", "don't be so eager.", "just act friendly.". WTF! I'm tired of not understanding that, even though I play it cool, I'm spending more time speaking to you than anybody else.

Sure, I'll continue this game of words. Let's see when my heart explodes.

Fuck.

Peppa